Yesterday I felt absolutely fine (maybe it's because I took 3 pills of sedative at once)! But my desire to draw has not disappeared, you are right, I need to pour out all my fortune on drawings.
I am still tormented by the question about the psychologist. I haven't visited him yet, after all... What should I say? Do I have to tell him everything? "Hello, I'm a little girl. I like to paint. And also I love cruelty and I don't control my anger." My God, I'll probably be deprived of everything - the Internet, drawing (but I think I need to distance myself from the news that bothered me).
But you know what? It's not over yet! Huh, did you tell anyone besides your friends that I would get better and people would bow down to me? Believe me, when this happens, I will bless everyone, all of you! I'm going to be a damn better person!
Yatsufusa
I have two small bits of advice for this situation.
1) Make sure the psychologist you are about to see is an actual 'medical professional', by which I mean a person with an actual medical degree from an accredited medical school. Depending on where you live, anyone who has absolved as much as an 'online course' might be allowed to set up shop and call themselves a "psychologist".
2) Be mindful if you ask random people on the internet for advice in questions of mental health. For all you know any given response might come from somebody more in need of professional help than yourself.